Hola, reader or two!
Today, I find my mind drifting over wanting attention, be it positive or negative. That so many people will take notoriety or fame just as easily, just to be acknowledged. I’ve not thought much past that, since it’s all very difficult for me to understand. Oh sure, I’d love to be noticed, but I’m not one to throw themselves under a truck to get that!
Which, of course, amused me when I spotted this little gem on the BBC:
Status ‘determines brain’s reactions to others’
It doesn’t surprise me – like generally attracts like. Which is probably why it all confuses me – my social status has been outsider since the day I was born (if only I were exaggerating there! *laughs*). While I am just as desirous as anyone else to have friends and acquaintance, I guess this helps explain why people assume that I consider myself better than everyone else; by virtue of being a born and bred outsider, the fact that I have been placed and am generally fine with being outside of it all makes it seem like I think I’m better. I don’t… much… *laughs* Not more than anyone else does in their passing thoughts and fancies, I’d wager.
But I guess that’s why I take a shine to those that could use a leg up and a snuggle. In spite of my relative outsider status, I have a lot of love to give, and a lot of frustration at the chaos and self-harm that makes up the mainstream. ESPECIALLY since so much of that is because people feel pressured to conform to certain ideas; I resent that concept. Oh sure, I care what people think of me – I’m no sociopath. I care to the bone just like anyone else, but I do my best to not let it control or bury me.
I also care about this stupid spot on my back that won’t stop itching. It’s driving me batty. *rubs against the chair in vain*
Anyways, it’s just random thoughts, I guess. *chuckles* They do prey on my mind while I look for avenues to try and get socialized here in a manner that doesn’t stress me out. I guess it would help if I took oh.. say… my one web friend from the area and went from there, if she were so inclined to hang out and craft one afternoon. *chuckles* Asking – that’s one of those things I’ve got to get better at.
A lot better at.
For now though? I’ve got an errand to run – hooray!