Allo, lovely folks out in the blogosphere! I’m still doing mainly okay, mood wise. Having said that, I continue to be low/no-energy to the point of near-chronic fatigue. And my favorite bit? I seem to be going through a patch of ‘insomnia’.
I use quotation marks around insomnia, because wiki suggests that my symptoms are more likely a circadian rhythm issue than insomnia. After all, I had severe problems with sleep paralysis through most of my Air Force tenure. My current issue is simply difficulty getting to sleep. Once I’m out, I’m out; I’ve not seen sleep paralysis since I stopped working day shift — seriously folks, some of us are 500% not wired to work ‘normal’ hours. It is that dangerous and detrimental for me. I currently go to bed somewhere between midnight and say… 1:30am (depending on how long I’m reading), and get up for 9:30am. I’m able to do this to preserve my health, and to be able to work, so you betcha that’s what I’m going to do.
Still, I waffle on how I feel about my ‘insomnia’. Even in the worst non-medicated times, I can count on one hand how often I’d be up for more than say… 2 hours. Now that I’m on Seroquel and its glorious knock-out drop side effect, issues with getting to sleep are almost non-existent… almost. I’m gobbling Melatonin at night right now to try and kick the cycle into staying happy, but as intimated — I’m still in a pretty strong patch of can’t get to sleep easily-itis.
I’m sure it will pass sooner rather than later and I can go back to feeling sheepish for complaining for losing *maybe* an hour a night of sleep, but for now, I’m bemused as to why it’s happening. Is there some lingering depression or hypomania that I’m not picking up on right now ’cause I’m so physically worn out? It would be nice to have an understanding of why it’s shown up, but much like my occasional migraine, I’ve yet to be able to tie it to anything concrete.
Ah well, so it goes. Hope everyone is doing well, and has fun plans for the weekend/had fun yesterday/etc!