Yesterday was my sixth wedding anniversary. It was a lovely day of not doing much of anything; I stayed home to recover from a visitor from back home. He was most courteous and a good time was had by all, but it was still that person in my space. At least he shifted his visit dates to not coincide with yesterday, ’cause I enjoyed having a meal out with my husband, and then spending the evening the same way we did the evening of our wedding — chilling outside in a pub beer garden. I learned something new about knitting, the weather was randomly pleasant amongst this horrible heat wave, and my sleep has just about returned to normal!
Past that, I’m still not quite sure what my state of play is. The feeling completely worn out and exhausted continues, but so does the nasty head cold (ergo, they could be related). My mood continues to stay amazingly even — I’d not believe it possible were I not in my own skin. Oh, there’s still the occasional spot of anxiety, but I know most of that is self-perpetuated by getting excited about wanting to do things and then trying to do them all at once. I break myself of that here and there, but it’s a habit that doesn’t quite want to die. *chuckles*
But for the most part, it’s glorious, ’cause I can actually *feel* gratitude and appreciation and all these nice healthy emotions that were often hidden because I was too busy fighting with the wilder swings. It’s wonderful to look at my family, or my cats, or my house, and think about how great my life is. I suspect gratitude in the banalist sense is an emotion that is taken for granted by those who aren’t fighting down the way up highs and lows. Or does that make sense? It does in my head, but I accept that doesn’t always translate well to ‘paper’.
Anyways, things are goodish. There’s not a lot of room for personal complaint. 🙂 It would be nice to have a bit more energy and spoonage to socialize a bit more widely (I’ve had to cull down to a nub because of the lack of energy), but I’m okay with it for now, hence lack of room for direct complaint.
I hope everyone else out there is holding up well.