Hello folks, I live! Sort of! Still!
Okay so, I started coming back around after all the pregnancy nausea hoohah. I was dealing with brain fog and chronic fatigue, and that was annoying for any number of reasons. But then, THEN? I got slammed by a week of migraine and migraine-like headaches. A week. When I can’t take codeine. GAH. And it was even more annoying because it meant I couldn’t use my shiny gorgeous HD desktop monitor because it was a trigger and darn it, I wanted to play Sims. *grumps*
But thankfully, I DID start coming out of it, and along the way I was even able to return to work, AND deal with my backlog of emails! Hello new Network folks, I told you I’d try to get back on the ball. 😀
I also felt that I should update on how things have been going since coming off of the Zoloft. I would deem it passable, but not ideal. I find that my mood is spiking into anger really easily (which I attribute to coming off of it in the first place), and that my threshold for stress has bottomed out again. I’m still feeling cushioned enough that I’m not overly worried, but pile a few stressors on me and all those pregnancy hormoes at the same time, and I’m liable to scream (and have once or twice, which did feel good… sort of). I still think that coming off of it was a good call for enabling me to have the pregnancy and labour that I want, and I can only hope that whichever psychiatrist I see next month will agree to continue on.
Yes, I said whichever. MY psych is retiring at the end of the month. We have a perfect understanding of why I want to come off my meds (the NHS won’t approve a home birth with stuff like Seroquel in the system due to the effects it can have on the fetus/baby), and that I have no intention of sneaking off of my meds — I want back on the second this kiddo is born. I’ve said it before, but in case any of y’all are new — hospitals push me into nervous breakdown territory in well under an hour due to the lights/noise/people/energy. Even doing a home birth, in my home, with only 3 other people present, I got to a point where I had to hit the gas and air HARD to tune them out. So yes — I’ve managed to well establish that I know what I want to do for the sake of my mental health and the health of my forthcoming progeny, and it does make me slightly weary and wary of maybe having to argue my case again.
Past that, just taking it easy and enjoying some gaming. We got an unexpected Christmas bonus, so I got a 2DS/Pokémon X bundle for £99 (no desire to ever have a 3DS, as I couldn’t use it), and my husband got himself a PS Vita. But yes, me and Pokémon… I think the husband is learning what it’s like to be my PokéWidow. *giggles* I’ve been addicted to the franchise since I first saw the cartoon in 1994, and he’s never had to see me before when I have the newest game in my hot little hands. I kid, of course — he’s happy that I have something that I enjoy so much, ’cause he’s a top-notch human being.
I hope that everyone out there is doing well, and is having a relaxing holiday season.