Laugh at me if you will, but I’m mildly distressed right now – Livejournal is/has been down.

DUM DA DUUUUUUM!

Now see, I like to do things in a rotation every day. I’ll roll out of bed, check email, check Facebook, check Twitter, check Livejournal. I’ll answer emails and posts and the like as I go through, and feel satisfied that I’ve covered the gamut. And I find that I prefer to do my Livejournal before I do here; it’s my ‘real’ blog, I guess.

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*starts pulling doors to*

Also, I cannot function with too much stimulation. As there are two different conversations in earshot and a rampaging baby, it does my head in. I can feel myself trying to bite through my own teeth – no good. But much like a site in my surfing rotation being down, it stresses me out. My attention span is so tiny that the only way I can turn it into something useful is to do things in a certain order under certain circumstances, thereby turning my weakness into a strength. Of course, it works against me if I’m destroying my poor F5 button refreshing a page because I have to see it before I can move on in the rotation, or because something desperately needs to be addressed and fixed before I can move on with my day/life, etc.

And of course, doing this blog is one of those loving stumbling blocks in my day. As I watch the time tick closer to five, I feel pressure to have my blogs done, to know that I’ve got a clean slate before I go home for the night. I’m sure that they’ll shift back to an at home thing next month, since I’ll have more to do at work, but for now… it’s me utilizing time that I’d otherwise spend playing a game or staring off into space.

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*keeps trying to make LJ post post*

Where was I? I cannot remember, hee hee. I’m almost ridiculously distressed watching the tab try to connect, to send, to finish its business. I already lost half the post ’cause of LJ going down, and being LJ, they haven’t bothered to mention why they’re down in the first place (like usual – sigh). I took that half a post and backed it up to a text document (’cause that’s what the cool kids do), but now I’m going to have to put sticky notes everywhere to make sure I don’t forget to make sure that LJ accepts some form of post or another. Oh sure, it’s not direly important… other than the fact it would break a year and half long streak of daily posting. I know that’s not really important in the scheme of things, but it doesn’t stop my poor fragile mind from fixating and making with the wailing/gnashing/lamentations. xD

Sigh… I’d almost rather be normal and break under the big things, rather than every tiny little ball of petty crap like this… ah well!

Back to whapping refresh – hope everyone is having a nice day.

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