Why is it the older we get, the more icky we feel? *laughs* I’m going to collapse under the weight of my own grumbles before I hit 40 at this rate, and that’s… I can’t even say sad, ’cause I’m incredibly amused by it all. Oh sure, headaches and migraine auras and creaks and cracks all suck, and I’m horribly aware of the lot, but I sort of revel in it. That’s kind of my only positive option, since I still haven’t cracked how to relax, hee hee. By that same token, I resent needing to take it easy; I’m still not used to the fact that I won’t fall asleep the second I stop doing stuff if it’s the middle of the day.
But that doesn’t mean that I’m terribly joyful for the headache and woozy that’s been sneaking up on me for days, and has lept the second I have the house to myself – d’oh! I blame this on one of my best friends, because obviously she’s beaming her feelthy underbelly germs at me as punishment for bothering her to do something for me daily for a week. *giggles* Really though, I’m just sheepish at how whiny I must sound about how I feel; it is my nature to state things, and then they’re less of a burden. So it goes for things on my mind, so it goes for my physical state – it’s acknowledged, and that’s sort of kind of it. *laughs* It is my way of processing things, at least – talk about it, and then it’s hopefully eventually hashed out into pasty goo and gone from my life!
I guess it means I’ll just have to make sure to look after myself extra special then, grump grump. I think I do pretty good on the day-to-day business – I eat three primarily healthy meals, and do my best to not pig out on junk between. I drink at least 2 liters of water a day, and usually closer to four. I’m trying to make sure I work out a little bit each day, and am meeting with some grudging success; I really dislike exercise, but I grumblingly have to agree with my friend Cristen – it is good for me, and my body is generally thankful afterwards.
Oh sure, I could do things better – I could cut out sodas, but I’m not going to right now ’cause I think the caffeine is helping my head a lot more than it’s hurting my body; I’m going to wean down once this current spate of migraines and near-migraines passes. I also am trying to break myself of my computer addiction to help with that, but it’s… mm. I love my little idiot boxes way too much, as do so many of us. Oh information – put it right into my veeeiieeeeins! xD
For now… gonna go poke at a to do list, and figure out my day. I’ve got the house to myself for another 8 or 9 hours (wowza!), so at least I’m not in any rush to have x or y done by certain times… definitely going to flop more than I would’ve normally, but still want to get Stuff™® done… here’s hoping I get the right balance.
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