I’m not sure what’s up with this week, but it sure has sapped my motivation to do anything. To be fair, there could be any number of reasons. I could be pregnant; we are currently trying for #2, and there’s a chance we already took. I don’t know for sure, though this week would likely be the telling one in the end. I do know that I’m spotting, cramping, and absolutely lacking desire to do anything that requires moving. That could just be illness though – I know I had a fever when I checked yesterday. Or it could just be Mr. Depression sneaking up through the cracks – he is an insidious bastard.
Whatever the case, that leaves me in a state of waiting. Being an anxious sort, this isn’t a state I particularly enjoy. And when one is lacking motivation, it can sometimes be more difficult to keep oneself distracted so that time passes in a polite and reasonable fashion. Thankfully, I’ve sort of got The Sims to distract me (when I can get it to work; the new stuff pack and its patches cannot get here fast enough), and I’m continuing my trek through the Malazan Book of the Fallen (I’m on #7, Reaper’s Gale), so that helps a smidge. I know it would help even more if I could convince myself to get off my duff and move, but eh… I’ll hopefully get there again in a few days. For now? Feh. Feh feh feh. *nods*