Oh anxiety, when you rain, you pour. And I don’t know how it is for anyone else with anxiety components to their disorder/normal state of being, but it seems like all sorts of triggers pile atop each other when you’re at the worst of the flow. That’s probably all in the mind though; the little things that don’t normally bother you all suddenly bother you en masse, making with the overwhelming.
Of course, I’m further vexed by being vexed because it’s Friday – being annoyed by people or web browsers is normal. Being vexed to the eXtreme on a Friday by them and all their little annoying cousins of annoyance, however? Boo! It’s Friday, the end of the traditional week (and the end of mine, ’cause lookie me being semi-standard!), and I want to spend my weekend relaxed, not picking up the pieces. Oh sure, I continue to apply what sanity-retaining measures I can, but considering that my entire week has been tinged by anxiety, it continues to not be a simple thing. I liken it in my head to clinging onto a windswept rock face, and oh… I don’t have any nails to aid in that. Is it any wonder that my default mode is to try and hide in a little world of my own? Really, sometimes I’m amazed that I never manage to interact with the outside world, ha ha.
Ah well, this too shall pass. Let’s hope that it will pass with me the victor, managing to get through without breaking down. I want to think that victory will make it worthwhile, and encourage me to keep fighting harder forto master my wonky chemistry. 🙂
A peaceful Friday to you all.