Ah, it’s a perfectly lovely word, isn’t it? Though it’s cheered up here by changing weather (I love both storms and sunshine, and today is seeing both), and little semi-optional quests. For example, one of my friends wrote the next piece in our correspondence, and I look forward to responding to that. I tell myself that it’s optional so as to take the pressure off, though; as much as I love letter writing, it gets harder with each passing year of Internet dominance. What is optional on my plate right now is braving crochet patterns. Being left-handed, I am incredibly intimidated by patterns. There’s the suggestion that you can just flip the pictures and it all makes sense, but it doesn’t make sense at all. So I’m trying to kick myself into trying an incredibly easy pattern and see if I can go with the flow. I know that if I can bust down this initial barrier, it will be easier, even if the mirroring is a daunting task.

I’m sure I could think up more things to do if I wanted to, but I don’t. Two things – that’s a good to-do list, I think. Who am I going to impress if I do more, some random people in the ether? I am getting better at understanding my limits every day, and unlike the example set for me growing up, I will respect them. I’d like to make it to old age in some semblance of one piece. That isn’t to say I’m going to live askeered to move or do things, just that I’m going to think before I do as best I can so I don’t burn myself up too quickly. While I found the saying ‘Die young and leave a pretty corpse’ amusing a decade ago, I find it less so now. I still feel young in spite of my age, and that is because I don’t tell myself that age makes me weaker or less. It ell myself to do what my body thinks it can do, but with respect for my body. Makes sense, yanno? We’re stuck with each other until we leave this plane of existence, so might as well try to make it a pleasant enough co-habitation. If I can’t get on with my brain, at least take the ally I can get, ha ha.

So yeah… that makes sense, I think. Things are okay, and that’s how I like it.

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