It’s a lovely day with nothing important to do, just the way I like it. As long as I can break the cycle of trying to circle the Internet, then I’ll probably do good at managing my anxiety. The cycle, I should add, is hitting my rotation of sites, but if there’s nothing, I start going around and around much faster trying to find something, anything new to read. It isn’t nice to a freaked out brain, and it’s something I constantly have to fight with. This feeder bar mentality (hit the button and win a tasty treat!) surely isn’t unique to me, but since I know it makes my anxiety worse, it’s ideal to break myself from it as I can.

I think I will also attempt to engage in some properly relaxing activities. I have a very hard time still in trying to make myself slow down, so doing things like flopping on the floor for a few minutes or taking a hot bath go a long way in that regard. That is, as long as racing thoughts don’t intrude; they tend to find the second I attempt calm to rile me up. It’s hard to get a real grasp on the concept of relaxation when your brain tries to sabotage it, ha ha.

Ah well, off to have a nice soak, and see if my shoulders ride back down..

<3