Up or Down?
I realized this morning as I was tearing around my house cleaning that I might be swinging back to hypomania. I’m really not sure what to make of it, really. I know I’ve been spending more money, but that’s also happenstance — I was going to buy the things I bought anyways. That several things I wished to purchase piled up on this week is just luck of the draw. What what about the sudden strong urge to DO that sprung up yesterday? I sort of hurt myself sewing, for example — why did I ‘need’ to sit down and sew for an hour when I was already exhausted!?
Ah well… at least I can hope that splurt of must do means that I will be slacking the rest of the weekend… I hope. I don’t have the internal means to keep doing things like that!
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i too have been swinging that way…. I hate it. It makes me feel so guilty, yet cautious at the same time. I just want to keep going and going and going, even when I am so bloody damned tired! I’ve been buying lots of music lately… and clothes for everoyne but me…. that is my way of not having guilt, ya know? “I bought it for you!” but I still got that release of spending….
I’m not naturally a spendyspend person, so I was definitely leaning on the husband to assure me I wasn’t out of line. I’m still not sure which way it was — we have more money now so we CAN spend more, so it’s always going to feel like I’m spending significantly larger portions of our income. But… **shakes head** Fuuun.