My hands continue to need to do, but mainly mindless things. I spent last night sewing and crocheting, and tonight I’m going to bake a cake. These aren’t particularly brain-intensive chores. What is brain-intensive is trying to write and research and read — while I’m not sure I’d describe my thoughts as racing, I can’t pin my brain down enough to cognate. It’s mildly distressing because I like spending swathes of my day reading things and learning what’s going on in the world, and my eyes just sort of glaze over at the walls of text. So in that regard, I would be very happy for my brain to check back in and enable me to resume feeding it intellectually. I shouldn’t be that surprised — as much as I’ve been immersing myself in games, it makes sense it would check out on me. I can’t call it lose/lose ’cause I’m still getting some reading done, and still enjoying gaming. I guess it just reaffirms what I said yesterday — I have no idea whether I’m up or down. I just sort of awkwardly am.

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