A Test of Will
Today, my husband wants us to take advantage of our free day to actually go out and yanno… do stuff all day. Nothing in particular, but just be out for a large swathe of the day. Outside. In the wider world. Suffices to say, my brain is already stropping and demanding I refuse to move from my comfy desk chair.
Of course, I’m planning to ignore my brain whines and go out. I don’t know what we’ll do with ourselves, but that’s not the point. The point is to do something different. And as it’s open-ended, it’s not like we’re going to burn out cramming as much into the afternoon as possible. But I’m also worried I’ll get bored and stress out over that, ’cause I’m twitchy and doing Stuff™® helps me channel that into some semblance of vaguely okay. But then, not having access to Things™® might mean that I get somewhere near that mythical idea of relaxation. Relaxation is good, and I really need to continue my work at trying to find a path to it.
For now though, I should rub my spoons together and try to get my ‘packing’ list sorted in my head. Iwill have a good time, and hopefully, it will inspire me to be more inclined to shift my butt out of my comfort zone. And maybe pigs will fly, but as you guys know — I will bludgeon myself with as much positivity as I can muster in that small reasonable space before it becomes maddening and saccharine. 🙂
I know it’s hard to do, but I think you will feel better for it. I do most of the time. Just remember to breathe if you start feeling overwhelmed. 🙂
Turns out he’d planned to come home for a bit in the middle, which is yay. My feet thank him!