Today, my body seems to be out to get me. One of my knees decided it was on strike, while the foot on the other leg is doing some weird things. Maybe I twisted funny in my sleep? I’ll tough it out and walk it out as I always do, but it bemuses me nonetheless. Then comes the menstrual cycle, which I will not explain in detail — it suffices to say that it is rather severe and even a bit horrifying to me. There’s a little bit of a headache, and one of my toenail beds feels like it needs some poking, if the bit of pain down there is any indication.

The upshot is that it does a great job silencing my brain. Now, I would definitely not seek out pain intentionally; I don’t like hurting any more than most people do. I was never a self-harmer in the cutting or self-injury sense — I instead relied on booze and drugs and the like to muffle the hateful sound my brain would make at me. It’s sad how common that is, but then, many societies would rather pretend that mental illnesses and the like don’t exist, but hey, drinking is social… right? Right? *shakes head*

But yeah, seeing how right now I don’t know if I’m coming up or down, I’m going to be thankful to every little thing, even grumping knees, if they keep my brain from finding things to be pissy about. There is a LOT of fodder out there right now, so… thank you, gimp knee and headache? *laughs*

Anyways, back to earning mah keep!

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