This is more of a question than a ramble — do you guys out there find yourselves so easily overloaded with frustration that you feel the need to lash out? Does it come incredibly easy, the frustration? I feel like I have been a lot better about reining it in and being more reasonable and ‘sane’ (sanity is subjective, ha ha), but it still catches me sometimes. I don’t know whether it’s a bipolar thing, per se, or an ADHD thing (I’m undiagnosed when it comes to ADD/ADHD, but I consider it highly probable that I have it).
I guess a little description of what I’m referring to above is in order. Imagine you’re trying to process some information. You’ve been looking at it off and on for some time, and have never been able to progress on it. It’s something you want to grok, but it’s just not sinking in. You try one thing, you try another, and it somehow becomes so complex that your brain rejects trying to process, and anyone trying to help you gets ripped a new one for trying to push that one last ‘helpful’ nugget of information on you. You know they’re just trying to be friendly and helpful, but because they can’t magically read your thoughts, they have no idea you’ve pushed past the point of things making sense and into the realm of ‘my brain is on fire and is making me stabby’.
This isn’t to say that neurotypical people don’t get frustrated. We all have similar emotional responses to things on a varying scale; that’s why you get those jerks who try to say that we’re all a little bipolar. Certainly, I acknowledge that normal people feel things too. But I would think that their entire brain and body doesn’t clench up and shut down over trying to process simple information. That’s actually one reason why I’d give bipolar some credit for the frustration overload — like many folks with bipolar, my lack of filtering means anything coming at me is face-punching brutal by default.
Anyways, this isn’t just a me thing, is it?