My anxiety is spiking like mad this ‘morning’. There’s no particular rhyme or reason to it, but I have one theory — my brain is freaking out ’cause I have no idea what to blog about. So, of course, I’m going to blog about that, ha ha.
I’m not sure at what point I decided I wanted this blog to try to be a daily, but I’ve stuck with it for the most part. After all, all the boffins say that one should pick a frequency to blog, and stick with that. Daily is the easiest for me to stick with, because I can half-schedule it to an approximate time in my day, and let rip; I can count on one hand (and maybe one finger) the number of times I’ve had inspiration enough to write posts in advance.
And that is probably my number one problem — inspiration. What should I blog about today? What should I blog about tomorrow? I keep thinking about asking people for suggestions, but my brain shuts down and goes to sleep (I’ll ask my husband sometimes, and his brain does the same thing. Thankfully, he knows I don’t expect him to be my blog topic keeper). I’m sure there are probably relevant topics readers would like my thoughts on, so consider this an open invitation for suggestions.
Anyways, it’s a funny auld bit of self-inflicted agony. It’s not like I owe anyone a daily post, not even myself. And yet, I’m all sorts of kind of obsessively committed to it. I guess because it’s an achievement I can generally achieve, and thereby get a small dose of ‘yay!’ endorphins on the daily, is part of it all. Or something. Really, I just want my heart to quit racing, and hopefully that’ll start once I hit the publish button, ha ha. Brains, eh? Can’t live with ’em, can’t trade them in for upgraded models. Not that I’m sure I’d really want to trade the old gal in — we’re used to each other!
Hope everyone has a great day, and a great weekend, and all of that positively-oriented jazz.
I know what you mean. I’ve kind of developed this idea that I should “only blog when I’ve something to say” which makes me feel (a) proud when I manage to work out what that is and (b) mainly, anxious, sitting in front of a screen or over a notebook, completely uncertain what I should write “about”… You’ve done pretty well writing about inspiration and what it feels like to have blog anxiety, and that’s something to write about! Nice one…
And I’m rewarding myself with a Tension Tamer tea. It seems to have a mix that actually makes me feel a bit soothed. Having said that, I should have considered having it when I was more anxious earlier.
Haha oh well, at least you got a good blog post out of the anxiety, and now you get to chill 🙂
Ayup! Just have my Livejournal to do, and my 750 words, and… well. This is the first and biggest hurdle to my writing day, to say the least! 🙂
I’ve committed myself to something similar – except for weekends and vactions/holidays. I worry about what I will blog about when I run out of material. So I know what you mean.
I guess it’s probably a concern in the heart of any dedicated blogger!
Lot of pressure on you. Wow. Take care of yourself. And have a peaceful day.
It’s a gorgeous day here, and once I got past this log, it’s been cheerfully productive! 🙂
Sounds familiar! I’ve done that “self-inflicted agony” stuff in the past. Then calmed it all down. But hey, would it damage your sense of self-achievement if you wrote every other day for a while, or had a small break from it? *dodges pots and pans being thrown* 🙂 You could then let the buzz last for a couple of days. But yep, any ingrained habit is hard to break. Especially when it comes with endorphins. At least you DO it. Sometimes we may need to write we’ve got nothing to say and have a shout about it! Hey hum. x
Hee, nothing thrown. 😀 I give myself permission to say ‘I have nothing to say’ if I have nothing to say, but I’m still perversely pleased to keep on trying to do a little bit better.
Exactly. Ah, that’s the spirit! Everything’s a struggle with a bipolar brain so you have much to be proud about. That’s for sure… 🙂
I feel the need to write every day, even if it sucks? So I guess I understand. <3
I just wish I could transition from doing it in my two point five blogs (point five being 750words.com) to actually working on fiction. I’m proud of my blogging accomplishments, but man… I’d love for my brain to do more creative!