I woke up this morning, plopped myself in my chair, and began my morning routine. I felt a little tickle on my back, so I reached back to scratch… and it hurt like a mo. Yeah, the wtf rash thing is back. I took an antihistamine and tried to think if I’d eaten or done anything that could have triggered it, but nothing comes to mind. And of course, there aren’t any appointments available with the doctor’s office until next week, by which time it will have gone away again — sigh! It’s not a bother as long as I don’t poke it, like last time, so I guess I’ll make sure to not poke it.

The only thing I can think of that might have hit stress enough to trigger it is that I did most of the driving yesterday. I don’t feel super-safe doing it before noon, but I’m amenable to practicing so it’s less of a bother. It didn’t help that all over town, the pedestrians and bicyclists were being hella irresponsible and jumping into the road before my poor brain could process it. So I’ll make note of that here, ’cause perhaps that’s the trigger. The rash has been such a recent and sporadic thing that, as said, I don’t know what could be causing it, so…

Past that, I’m doing my utmost to keep my brain calm and relaxed and non-fixating. We are going to give trying to have another kid a second go, and this time, I’d like it to stay an enjoyable prospect. I had a lot of problems last year with fixation, so I’m doing my best to apply mindfulness to keep my life more enjoyable. Easier said than done, but hey — it’s a good and satisfying challenge if one manages to pull it off.

Anyhoos, back to being a productive little worker bee. I hope everyone is doing well.

<3