Such Fog, Very Yuck
Some internet meme-trends like doge here make me feel old, ha ha. But sometimes, it does well to capture the essence of an idea. In this case, my current physical state, which does make me feel a bit snarky. My levels of brain fog the past week or two have been ridiculous, and has me running to doublefist sodas first thing in the morning. The fog has been lasting for several hours, which makes it a lot harder to help out with getting the kids taken care of first thing in the morning. Lilbit (the 4 year old) wakes me up with a chirpy chorus of, ‘Mommy, it’s 8 o’clock! Mommy, it’s 8 o’clock, wake up!’. I then repay her… kindness… by chivying her through dressing and grooming. It’s not fun to do with the incessant questioning that comes from children that age. I thought I’d be able to handle the ‘why?’ phase, but man… hubris to the nth degree.
And of course, I wonder why I ache and am foggy and the brain comes up with all sorts of ideas. What if it isn’t bipolar, but is actually PMDD? What if it’s fibromyalgia instead of, or in addition to, endometriosis? Or is it just a symptom of aging + weather? I know my mother-in-law has been having some joint pain lately, and my husband says it’s a constant complaint for him as well. While I can sort of accept it could be that, my brain still wants to have concise answers. Knowing things makes them easier to fight; they’re not longer monsters cloaked in shadow. But really, I just want to feel unache-y and energetic enough to get some gardening done. I did mention that the chronic fatigue has clamped down again, right? Yeah, all the fun…
I think that my biggest annoyance of current is that the level of fatigue and physical pain has gone past the point where it distracts from my brain, to where it’s making my brain crankier. I’ve been a bit snappish and short on mental spoons, though I’m sure that I could fairly blame most of that on the brain fog. I’m doing my best to communicate this to my husband, and that does help cut back on some of the worst braintail-lashing. But still, I hope it lifts a bit because this sucks.
Ah well, I guess give it a few years, and the Seroquel-related fog should pass. Woo, years. -__-
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Ah – I relate to this post – snark away! Re: Seroquel, it sounds like you’re off it? (I haven’t read archives yet, as you can tell) I’ve been taking Seroquel since last fall and I was at 100 mg, which completely fogged me out during the day. I was drinking 4 giant mugs of coffee daily and it did *nothing* for me – scary! Going to 50 mg has made a major difference.
Hope your brain fog vanishes somehow soon….hang in there….just tweeted this!
I came off of it while I was pregnant, and restarted the same day the kiddo was born. By the time I had come off of it (almost 2 years of taking it, and at that point 400mg/day), I was starting to clear the brain fog a lot faster. Now that I’ve restarted, it’s back to Square One, even with taking it before bedtime. I can’t take it any earlier really, ’cause then I crap out hours before I want to.
Ugh, I live in the fog most of the time too. Lighthouse, anyone?
I have one word that gives fast, fast relief: acupuncture. It works. Oh, and another one: craniosacral therapy. My last acupuncturist did both, at the same time! Heaven. Then the !#=/+? bum moved very far away. And I feel shite again. Looking for a new acupuncturist, knowing I’ll be prejudiced because of my last one. OK, I’ll stop now. Sending warm wishes for feeling better…..Laura
I’ve thought about acupuncture off and on. *nodnods* It’s something that I never quite get around to due to not wanting to splash out for it. I almost convinced myself when someone had their office in the same building as my dentist, but she’s not there anymore.
Consider it an incredible investment in your well being and that of your family.
I will certainly consider it, m’lady doctor! 😀