I’m tired. That’s the only word for it. I’ve been tired for days and I’m only just now enough untired to pop up and say hi. Howdy. Because yanno, from Texas originally.
It’s been a good sort of busy around here lately though. My sister (the other sister) came to visit, which necessitated all the cleaning and running around like a headless chicken that familial visits entail. And then there was the actual visit. We ended up having a fight, but it was good in the end. We finally sat down and discussed things and probably for the first time this century were on the same page. It was amazing, and I look forward to continuing to rebuild our relationship on a better foundation.
But obviously, all of that takes a lot of spoons. A lot of spoons. Add in a couple of sick children, and whelp. I’m not sure how I’ve been holding it all together, but I have. Barely. The husband very kindly arranged for me to have a few hours without anyone in the house earlier today and that helped a bit. Hopefully a good night’s sleep and another low-impact day will see me swung about. Who knows. At least the spot of insomnia that had been blighting me seems to have gone away, so that’s good.
Also, anxiety has gone back a few pegs, but that’s to be expected with a big stressful thing done and over with. I’m not really sure exactly where it is. I had hoped that upping my dose of antidepressant would have done for it, but it seems to be clinging on. Maybe it will start to fade again soon? I don’t know. Maybe I need to find more things different to do? Being out in the garden has been nice, and I’ll need to get out there tomorrow to do some belated planting. I think the weather is going to cooperate. We’ll see.
Hope everyone is doing well out there.
Wow. I gotta hand it to ya, juggling all that family stuff and not ending up in the bin. Glad you and your sis ended up on a good note!
As a confirmed recluse, I can’t even imagine that much activity and that many personalities swirling around me. A dog and a quiet place to live, and I’m pretty well set.
I must admit a tug of envy, though, of people like yourself who have actual families, with family-type struggles and the growth they give rise to, and, of course, love. I wish you lots more great times with your fam, and when the going gets tough, I wish you renewed closeness and even more love when you come out the other side!
Thank you for your kind wishes, friend. I am feeling way blessed lately with it all.
You just went thru a major stressor. Family visit?? YAH. plus sick kids counts as two! cut yourself some slack and yes a bit more ahhh would help a lot. Good to hear from you!
Hee, hopefully this week will be a bit calmer. We’ll see. I’m definitely trying to take it as easy as I can while not completely checking out from the world.
I’m so impressed you worked things out with your sister! You give me hope that maybe, just maybe, someday I might have a similar experience with my brother.
I’m very happy the insomnia has gone, although I wish the anxiety would follow it out the back door! I think gardening will be a balm for you! My dad (who had bipolar) loved his garden and it really helped him during his life in all sorts of ways.
Your husband sounds like a true gem in terms of understanding you need some solo time! Good to hear from you, as always!
He’s freaking amazing, and has been so good for me. When I washed up on these shores, I was both somewhat alcoholic and somewhat abusive. His quiet, gentle love and support made me want to do better for both of us.
I’m tired, too. Can relate. Relax. You need it. You deserve it.
I’m slowly swinging back around. Definitely feels good to have a spoon to check in though. 🙂
Yes. I hope that you receive the love and support you need right now, that we give you some more spoons.
I just finished re-redding my hair for the first time in ages, so that should be some good self-care too. :D
Yes. Without doubt.