Oh man, has anyone seen my brain? I think I have officially destroyed it. *giggles* But it was for good! My beloved Bipolar Blogger Network is the most squared away that it’s been in ages. Thank you for that much, hypomania. I’m utterly worn out, but like… productive. Woo. Also, I told myself that if I had time to sit and read the wiki articles of the Monarchs of the United Kingdom in order, I had time to do network stuff. >__>

I keep looking at some coloured pencils I have and thinking I need to draw something. But what. Maybe my brain will hork up an illustration idea for here. We’ll see. They’re sparkly, so they torment me with the constant flashing reminder that they are there.

I think that the Depakote is doing some good? At the least, it’s not doing any bad. My hair is intact, I’m not particularly nauseous, and I’ve not turned bright yellow from liver bile explosions or whatever. Between that and the Seroquel being normal release, I’m getting to sleep easily and sleeping heavily, which is good. Oh, my dreams aren’t any weirder than usual. If anything, they’re less weird… but then, my dreams by default are usually the Apocalypse, so.

Having said that, I’m sort of worried that my next psych appointment is less than a month away. I have never had appointments so close together. I’m kind of terrified it means that Dr. Z is mad at me for trying to push for ADHD diagnosis/medication, which is probably just completely silly. Maybe it’s just because Dr. K thinks that I am at risk of going manic because she thought I was so high. I actually feel bad about that, because if it had occurred to me while I was in my appointment, I would have pointed out that I have never had a manic episode (that I know of), have never been hospitalised for bipolar, and that right now is only of concern because of its duration. I’ll try to not fret over it though, because really, what good does that do? And really, complaining about being seen in a timely fashion when I have friends who can’t even get in the system? Bleh.

I think I am going to go find some chocolate, and veg out for a bit before bed. Hope everyone is well out there.

<3