Still Around
I know, I haven’t been around here much. I went from not having much to say to having too much to say to just being super busy with life in general. The overarching picture continues to be good, though I … Continue reading →
Tag Archives: anxiety
Roller
I’ve been feeling both up and down lately. I don’t think it’s a mixed episode, though yanno, any feeling of elation is going to make me suspicious… thanks brain, you’re a douche. I mean, it makes sense though. Death is … Continue reading →
Medicated Mix-Ups
If there’s one thing to know about me, it’s that I loathe using the phone. Undiagnosed/untreated ADHD don’t go well with trying to focus on a crackly voice down a tube with no facial or hand gestures to help parse … Continue reading →
Eye Twitches and Crazy Mail
My body has continued to make sure that I understand fully that I might not be outwardly stressed, but inwardly is — my right eye has been twitching as if it were trying to take flight for days now, … Continue reading →
Equanimity
Equanimity :noun equa·nim·i·ty \ˌē-kwə-ˈni-mə-tē, ˌe-kwə-\ :calm emotions when dealing with problems or pressure Equanimity has been something that I have been seeking my entire life. Between untreated mental health issues and my not-than-healthy growing up home life, I tended … Continue reading →
The Best Sort of Mistake
So apparently, I was incredibly wrong about something. It turns out that Dr. K wasn’t leaving — she was about to go on vacation and wanted the matter of my Seroquel resolved before she left! Oh man, I cannot express … Continue reading →
Mur Mur Murrr
I’m sitting here being Annoyed as Fuck™® because I am anxious and it’s making me slightly depressed and they’re feeding each other back and forth. I’m sooooo not impressed. Like, getting the Seroquel sorted means that I’m sleeping well, am … Continue reading →
Eh. It’s Gradual.
Since getting my psych to put me back on the extended release Seroquel, I… I think I’ve been feeling better? It’s a really slow going thing, and doesn’t negate the fact that even in the best spells I’m going to … Continue reading →
Validation
I’ve been in to see my psychiatrist today, and let me tell you, I am feeling so much better even if at the same time I’m feeling soul-crushingly depressed. First of all, I’d not seen her since September. I get … Continue reading →
World Suicide Prevention Day
Like many (most?) amongst the Bipolaratti, I too have entertained the notion of killing myself. I’ve even had one incident since getting diagnosed with bipolar, but thankfully, only the one. Having said that, I’ve not trended much towards suicidiality. I’ve … Continue reading →