I have been rubbish about checking in here… sorry about that. But like, most of my problems these days have been physical rather than mental. Even with having been putting up with a bullying situation in my social group, the … Continue reading →
Last week, one of my friends was committed. It turned to to be totally voluntary and she’s out now, but the two people making the announcement about it were very thoughtless in their word presentation. One person said that … Continue reading →
Earlier this week, I was sad. Just sad. Sad is different from depressed. Unfortunately, it’s such a huge dose of sad that now it’s feeding depression, which is feeding sad, and let’s go spinning down down down. *sighs* You see, … Continue reading →
So after feeling so rubbish and depressed at the weekend, I’ve had a really good week? I’ve been really productive in doing work things, though admittedly my daily focus hasn’t extended much past that. I like working, even if it’s … Continue reading →
Like many (most?) amongst the Bipolaratti, I too have entertained the notion of killing myself. I’ve even had one incident since getting diagnosed with bipolar, but thankfully, only the one. Having said that, I’ve not trended much towards suicidiality. I’ve … Continue reading →
Yesterday, like most Americans home and abroad, I had a little BBQ with friends and family. This was the fifth annual iteration that we’d been doing it with one of my ‘local’ ex-pat friends (she lives a couple of hours … Continue reading →
One thing that I do to mask my illness enough to look vaguely functional is to operate almost completely out of designated safe spaces. The main one is, of course, my home. I’ve got a safe nest built with lots … Continue reading →
Man so, my brain was being especially stupid yesterday. One of my dearest friends is very active on Tumblr. His account is the only one of more than 1-10 posts a day I follow… not on Tumblr itself because … Continue reading →
Dear Daughter, Here’s Why I Don’t Work Dear Daughter, Here’s Why I Work Gah. When I was pregnant with my first child, I made a conscious decision to avoid parent-to-be boards. Being mentally ill and chronically low on spoons, I … Continue reading →
I am rather unsure about the state of my mood at this time. I’m in a good mood, but I am feeling a bit more irritated. The line on the meme-picture came to my head after I got home from … Continue reading →